Saturday, June 29, 2013

Bitter and Hatreds

It is a complete waste of emotion and effort, and do nothing for me other than cause me to age and the overall wellness of being.

Worse, cluttered my mind to see and think clearly, and make me into one of the walking dead.  The walking dead created their own hell and live in it, such group will want to pull you into their hell, as they’ve been trying to do to me.

I absolutely refused to live a miserable life!!

We only have a finite amount of time to live on this earth, to waste it on chasing after money and live a miserable life is just incomprehensible.

Life is a Journey, enjoy the trip.
Life is a Journey, the less baggage you carry, the further you will travel.


So, if anyone wondered how I achieved the kinds of accomplishments I had with an average IQ, this is the major reason, the ability to focus.  I am also an asexual, which means I am not distracted by every life form's urge to reproduce; again, the ability to focus.  Additionally, I mediate to enhance my ability to focus and to see things clearly.  Furthermore, I subscribed to the old adage - genius is 1% aspiration, and 99% perspiration.

But most importantly, I never spend time in scheming to ruin a person's life, but focus on living a fulfilling life.

Oh, I also read a lot in various topics.


Why would people obsessively slander a person no one wants?

If someone said "no one wanted her; no one liked her; etc."  then why such obsessively slandered  someone no one wants??

If no one wants her, then no one should be talking about her.  After all, no one wants her.  A person no one wants shouldn't be in anyone's mind, less obsessively bad mouthing such person.

Such slandering already indicated bad intention, a malicious intention; especially if someone a person never met or barely know.

It intended purely to incite resentment and hatreds toward their target.

You would never talk about someone you had never met or barely know, less obsessively bad mouthing  the person.

Action speaks louder than words.

The action here is:  obsessively slandered about someone never met or barely know.

When would a person do that?  Out of HATE?  They knew slanders would incite every low life to act that resulted in more slandering and continuous sexual harassment, abuses, termination, physical harm, and now a failed abduction and rape that let to a stabbed on the neck and cut across my throat that may have killed me.

What kind of people would hate someone they never met or barely know?  If they did it to me, who are they going to target next, you?


I moved to the DC metro knowing only one person, from NYC, and worked nearly 24/7 after I started the job and hadn't seen daylight for months.  Then I was terminated from my job due to a smear campaign conducted the first month I was on the job instigated by the likes of Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen, to incite sexual harassment, abuses, termination, physical harm and rape; then Shawn Joseph and other classmates who also spread to the rest of the Patent and Trademark Office, where they spread to their family, friends, neighbors and neighborhoods such as Arlington VA.

My officemate Hung Havan and his cabal Nathan Hillery - a Union Rep, Michele Choi, Susanne Lo and her (Indian) friends from AU2128 further the slanders to incite sexual harassment, abuses, termination, physical harm and rape, which incited management that have no qualm about terminating a Chinese woman and got me terminated.  Another word, Hung Havan and his cabal gave these management a reason to terminated me even though I done nothing wrong and with outstanding accomplishments while worked nearly 24/7, kept low key and not be seen.

I've been going through PTSD since my termination and don't leave the house that often.  No one should even know me unless is part of the smear campaign against me which I experienced whenever I am out and about, particularly by the likes of Tuan Nguyen's countrymen/women.

And now I got a neck stabbed and slashed across the throat.  I was specifically targeted by the Hispanic male attacker.


I want to shine a light on discrimination amount Asian communities

only than that they can't continue to practice their racism and bigotries, particularly on me.

These people attacked me as soon I arrived in the Silicon Valley and now in the DC metro.  It is purely due to racism and bigotry.  But they will use every specious excuse to justify their racism and bigotry such as accused me of being one.  But I didn't say or do anything to them, they attacked me without ever met me.

Anyone who has realized "because she is one of us", you are there.  The term is Americanized.  My Hispanic/Latino neighbor in NYC taught me the term when I told her what happened to me.  Apparently  she learned it from the old Eurpean immigrants.  She is at her ripe age of 87+ years old.

Asian is the current massive immigrant, before that was the South Americans, and before was the Europeans.

Had to abscond from the Silicon Valley

I was targeted soon I arrived in the Silicon Valley by people from Asia (mostly H1B) in the 1990s, where they were the majority in every tech company's Engineering department I've worked.  The smear campaign never stops as I tried to move from company to company in the Silicon Valley.

I was also targeted in similar manner by Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen the first month I am here in the DC metro.

I was treated like an African-American woman in a KKK town, relentless malicious slanders everywhere I went in the Silicon Valley.  Is the Silicon Valley or Arlington the Asian version of the KKK town?

In my last company in the Silicon Valley, the top level management found out I had to resign due to continuous smear campaign that incited hates, sexual harassment, abuses, termination and rape; and fired the Director Raymond Tan as well his cabal.  The Director's friend, also a coworker came after me and threatened me with physical harm.  I moved to Palo Alto, where an Asian Gang was waiting for me near my car in a parking lot.  I had to abscond from the Silicon Valley.

Raymond Tan's cabal:
Paul Liu 
Don Nguyen
 
Man Nguyen
 
Tam Nguyen
 
Hung Nguyen
 
Jian Jun Cui
 
Joseph Liu
 

One of these guys with a disability on the leg came to threaten me with physical harm.

Not just physical harm threats has been done to me, but continuous psychologically torment me using smear campaign such as "no one wanted her; no one liked her; etc" to incite resentments and hatreds toward me, as well slanders to incite sexual harassment, abuse, termination, physical harm and rape, which already done to me.

And in recent News,


US CEO held captive by Chineseworkers

The American executive being held captive inside his Chinese factory by his own workers insisted Wednesday he’s tried to leave the building, but has been blocked by angry employees at every turn.

“I tried the other day, and they all pretty much lock arms together and won’t let me go,” said Chip Starnes, speaking to TODAY’s Savannah Guthrie through the barred window of his office.“They’re very aggressive, they only let you go so far around the factory.”
Starnes is the 42-year-old chief executive of Specialty Medical Supplies, which has operated a plant just outside of Beijing for the last decade.

However, the company recently moved a part of its Chinese factory to India, laying off about 35 Chinese workers in the process. Each was provided a severance package. Remaining workers soon began demanding similar compensation deals, even though they were still employed, leading to the confrontation with Starnes.

Employees have prohibited their boss from leaving the building since last Friday, although Starnes said he has made several attempts.

http://www.today.com/money/us-ceo-held-captive-chinese-workers-i-think-im-here-6C10454467

Lawyers for my EEOC case charged an arm and a leg

Now they want my first born too.

Some of these lawyers behaved as if they are Judge Judy.  You can't even ask question(s).  I am talking about lawyers here, not a Judge.

For an unemployed and can't secured a job due to defamation of me since the first month working in the Patent and Trademark Office, it's been tough to continue paying the lawyer fees.  

Most of them don't really know what they are doing.  And our judicial system ruled based on the type of lawyer you got, not based on material facts.  I had overwhelming material facts including termination letter and the administrative judge herself said it was a "forced resignation", yet she ruled that I resigned.  

So this is our Judicial System, such gross miscarriage of justice, nothing but a kangaroo court.



Did you hear about a case where a woman fired for being "irresistible"?  In a all male court no less

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/12/21/bosses-irresistible-workers_n_2348381.html

IOWA CITY, Iowa -- A dentist acted legally when he fired an assistant that he found attractive simply because he and his wife viewed the woman as a threat to their marriage, the all-male Iowa Supreme Court ruled Friday.
The court ruled 7-0 that bosses can fire employees they see as an "irresistible attraction," even if the employees have not engaged in flirtatious behavior or otherwise done anything wrong. Such firings may be unfair, but they are not unlawful discrimination under the Iowa Civil Rights Act because they are motivated by feelings and emotions, not gender, Justice Edward Mansfield wrote.

Friday, June 28, 2013

I am going to get a turkey neck, AAARRRRgggghhhh

The skin around the cut and stab part of the neck is loose.  OMG, I am going to get a turkey neck.  All I need now is to get fat and I'll be ready for Thanksgiving.    Gobble Gobble



I try to maintain a sense of humor in even dire circumstances.  I was still cracking jokes when I got stabbed.  IE.  A police asked me how I am feeling, I said ok other than the pain in the neck.

I really tried to adopt Hawkeye's philosophy from M.A.S.H - make lemonade out of lemon in life.

I DO NOT  want to live a miserable life, and so I've been avoiding miserable people, haters, negative energy, etc.

After all I've been through since elementary school, if I don't take things in stride, I would be such a bitter person .......


HATE

When I was in elementary school, this Chinese-American teacher hated me because of where I was born.  I wasn't aware of where I was born then at such young age.  She did everything she could to have other Asian students to shun me.  She refused to teach me anything, included writing.

Since the 1990s soon I arrived in the Silicon Valley/San Francisco Bay Area, people from Asia (mainly Chinese, Vietnemese and Indian) hated me because I am Chinese, and the Chinese perceived me as Americanized, a traitor in their view.

FYI, Chinese, Vietnamese, Indian, Japanese, Korean, etc., from Asia all discriminated against each other in general, as I learned working in the Silicon Valley/Tech Industry.  This is no different then the Europeans discriminated against each other.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Still afraid to leave the house.......

Especially after I saw the 2 Hispanic males following me the other day when I tried to go out.

Keeping all the doors locked really annoyed some housemates.

Internet is a blank canvas

In the article below in my previous blog,  notice how the people in the article use the Internet to do harm.

http://makingmycasestoday.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-was-targeted-in-similar-manner-as-this.html

Americans (of all colors and races) in general use the Internet as a way of innovation, and in the process, make themselves into billionaires and millionaires. 

This is the difference between growing up in an abusive environment (think North Korea)and a nurturing environment.


Asian culture is a culture of conformity, similar to the military or the Republican Party.  Once one had diverted to be different, such as Grace Wang here, such person is targeted relentlessly.

Also, just like the Europeans discriminated against people from different parts of Europe (Germany, France, Italy, etc.), the Asians just as discriminatory toward people from different parts of Asia, if not worse than the European.  


But many from Asia don't like Americanized-Asians.  They see us as a traitor.  So basically, I have to hate America and Americans in order to survive in America.  Otherwise my life would be ruined, raped and have my throat slit.  

That's why I don't like to tell people when they asked me about my race.  I learned this the hard way working in the Silicon Valley/San Francisco Bay Area.

I am thinking of getting a gun or a taser

Monday, June 24, 2013

Critical thinking and herd mentality

Herd mentality only affects the weak-minded or those with issues (racist, bigots, psychologically unstable, hate, envy, jealousy, avarice, etc.).

Not those with critical thinking.



I was targeted in similar manner as this - Duke student

Fury vented on Duke student

Views on Tibet evoke death threat, 'Traitor to China' insults

By Peggy Lim, Staff Writer
Source: News & Observer
Sunday 27th April, 2008  
 

DURHAM - When Grace Wang stepped into the middle of a recent rally at Duke University between pro-Tibet and pro-China factions, she was trying to play devil's advocate. But she ended up being branded something of a devil herself -- a sellout to her native China.

The next day, photos of her at the rally popped up on mitbbs.com, the largest bulletin board service for Chinese students in North America. The Chinese characters for "Traitor to China" were emblazoned across her forehead. Personal information from Wang's national identity card and directions to her parents' apartment were posted online. A torrent of threatening e-mail messages and phone calls ensued. Big red letters reading "Kill the whole family" were painted in the hallway of their apartment building. Wang's parents have temporarily moved away.

Soon after Duke's student newspaper reported Wang's story, The New York Times and Washington Post followed suit with front-page articles. Then National Public Radio, Japanese television stations and Taiwanese and Hong Kong news media came knocking. The BBC asked Wang to mediate a radio debate.

Before all this, Wang, 20, was a college freshman with typical freshman objectives -- keeping up with her ambitious course load, dating and coping with dining hall food. But life has grown more complicated since she became the center of an international maelstrom.

In the spotlight
In the days immediately after the rally, Duke University stepped up security patrols around her dormitory. And Wang secured a pro bono attorney who is pushing for the punishment of those who anonymously posted vicious messages to incite attacks against her.

Wang, who is slight with long hair, bangs and a ready laugh, has not shied away from the spotlight. She has ridden the wave of media attention. By getting an extension for finals in two classes, she has managed to squeeze in a few more interviews before cramming for exams.

"One-sixth of the population in the world already knew my national ID and my parents' address," she said of her initial thought when The New York Times called. "I didn't have any privacy anymore."

Many forces have been at play to carry Wang's story across the globe. For many Chinese, the run-up to Beijing's hosting of the summer Olympics is a sensitive time, especially in light of humiliating episodes of heckling at Olympic torch relays and attacks by people protesting China's human rights record. Many Chinese around the world want to present a united front in support of their native country.

At the same time, the Internet has made it easier for "fen qing" -- the Chinese term for angry youth -- to go after those whom they think weaken that solidarity or denigrate their motherland. These youths can mobilize witch hunts, put out personal information and get others to send a barrage of vicious e-mails and phone calls.

'Mob mentality ... is sick'
Wang said she doesn't want others to think they can silence her through intimidation and discourage others from expressing their views.

"This mob mentality ... is a very sick mentality," Wang said.

She has found some media-savvy allies. Scott Savitt, a visiting scholar in the school's Chinese media studies program, has taken up her cause.

Savitt, 44, has helped arrange interviews for Wang, directed reporters to Web sites and supplied translations for Chinese documents. He also helped transcribe and polish Wang's words for an essay The Washington Post published last Sunday.

Wang has also been buoyed by support from other students. A few of her multilingual classmates have even helped her deflect ugly phone calls by answering for her in languages such as Hindi or Spanish until harassing callers hung up, she said. The Duke Human Rights Coalition held several solidarity events in her and her family's honor. And hundreds of students signed a banner that said, "We support Grace," junior Adam Weiss said.

In the Chinese student community at Duke, however, people have mixed feelings about Wang. Many Chinese students are appalled that she blamed the Duke Chinese Students and Scholars Association for helping to release information about her on its e-mail list. That accusation caused some campus groups to call on the university to disband the student association. Other Chinese students have openly speculated that Wang is a political opportunist. They say she has said different things to different audiences.

At the April 9 protest, she wrote "Free Tibet Save Tibet" on Weiss' bare back after making him promise that he would try to talk to the pro-China side. And she lectured Chinese students in English about being more tolerant and open to dialogue with the pro-Tibet side.

Later that night, she composed an open letter in Chinese to the Duke Chinese Students and Scholars Association e-mail list. In it, she explained she was not for Tibetan independence, but rather better ties between Han Chinese, who make up the ethnic majority in China, and Tibetans. She also tried to convey her patriotism.

Response carefully couched
"The Americans want to roast us in hot coals," she wrote in Chinese. "Be sure not to let them take advantage or show off their cleverness."

Wang said she thought she should use words that were more nationalistic than her actual feelings to calm some of the animosity toward her. At the protests, Chinese students had just told her she could be "burned in oil" for speaking up; when discussion became too heated, police had to escort her away.
Ming Qian, a former Chinese student association leader, said despite their ambivalence toward Wang, many Chinese students at Duke condemn the vicious attacks against her.

"Let Ms. Wang go," the engineering doctoral student wrote in one e-mail message. "She is still young, let her find her own way. Stop bashing her."

Wang said she knows she's not perfect. Looking back, she sees that she might have been "more sophisticated" about speaking up. "Sometimes it's not what you say but how you say it," she said.
"I make mistakes all the time. ... I rush into things," she said. "But isn't it right for young people to try?"
At Duke, she is tackling new languages, taking classes in Italian, German and French, and perhaps Arabic this summer. She said she loves a diction class where she sings off-key in German. Next year, she hopes to take fencing or tennis.

She still hopes to enter politics someday -- maybe with the United Nations, maybe in China. But it's early yet; she's only a freshman who hasn't declared a major.

Wang is wrapping up interviews with the media. "Her 15 minutes is winding down," Savitt said, "although '60 Minutes' called today. ... "

Wang said she needs to refocus on her studies and try to do well on exams, especially in her favorite class this semester -- grass-roots democracy.

BY THE NUMBERS
46 - Number of undergraduate foreign students from China at Duke University
511 - Number of total foreign students from China at Duke University
1 - Rank of China as the country sending most foreign students to Duke
(DUKE UNIVERSITY, INTERNATIONAL OFFICE, 2007-2008)
1,450 - Number of foreign students from China in North Carolina
67,723 - Number of foreign students from China in the United States
(INSTITUTE OF INTERNATIONAL EDUCATION, 2006-2007)
peggy.lim@newsobserver.com or (919) 836-5799
http://www.newsobserver.com/news/story/1051712.html


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Notice how Americans (of all colors and races) use the Internet as way of innovation, and in the process, make them billionaires and millionaires.  The people in above article use the Internet to do harm.
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New Freedom, and Peril, in Online Criticism of China

By Ariana Eunjung Cha and Jill Drew
Washington Post Foreign Service
Thursday, April 17, 2008
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/04/16/AR2008041603579_pf.html


HAIKOU, China -- Wang Qianyuan did not realize she would cause such a frenzy last week when she ran into a group of American students, Tibetan flags tied over their shoulders, getting ready for a vigil at Duke University to support human rights.

She used blue body paint to write "Save Tibet" slogans on the bare back of one of the organizers but did not join their demonstration.

Wang, a Chinese national, knew she was treading on sensitive territory. "But human rights are above everything," she said later in a telephone interview. Even national pride.

Before long, a video of the 20-year-old freshman, seen standing between pro-Tibet activists and Chinese counterprotesters, was posted on the Internet. Within hours, an angry mob gathered online, calling her a "traitor" who should be punished.

Someone posted personal information about Wang on the Internet, including her national identification card number, as well as her parents' address and phone number in China. "Makes us lose so much face. Shoot her where she stands," one anonymous user wrote in a comment posted above Wang's portrait from Qingdao No. 2 Middle School.

In the wake of the violence that has rocked Tibet and the protests over the Olympic torch relay, online bulletin boards in China have erupted with virulent comments rooted in nationalist sentiments. On some sites, emotional Chinese have exchanged personal information about critics and hunted them down. Such situations have become so common that some users refer to the sites as "human flesh search engines."

The verbal onslaughts have been made possible in part by the Chinese government, which has allowed online discussion to progress more freely recently than in the past. With the Olympics nearing, China has gradually allowed some sites that had been left on-again, off-again for years -- BBC, CNN, YouTube and others -- to remain accessible for several weeks now.

Even Wikipedia, blocked for years because of its controversial entries about human rights in China, is accessible and contains a lengthy entry on the "2008 Tibetan unrest." It notes that "Tibetans attacked non-Tibetan ethnic groups" but also contains information that "the violence was fueled by rumors of killings, beatings and detention of monks by security forces in Lhasa."

The number of Internet users in China hit 228.5 million in March -- for the first time surpassing the number of users in the United States, 217.1 million, according to the Beijing-based research firm BDA China.

Almost as soon as the news about the Tibet violence broke in mid-March, the Chinese government's initial response was to do what it had always done in times of crisis: It imposed a news blackout. Foreign news Web sites deemed controversial were blocked and faxes were sent to administrators of online discussion sites requesting that certain postings be deleted.

Then, just as quickly as online news and discussion about Tibet disappeared, it reappeared -- overwhelmingly in support of the Chinese government.

The situation in Tibet and the controversy over the Olympic torch relay is now the most popular discussion topic on Tianya, one of the largest online discussion sites in China, even though the site used to follow a very clear rule: No politics.

"Chinese Internet users very much like to express their opinions, and the environment on the Internet as compared to traditional media is more open to allowing them to do so," said Xing Ming, 39, chief executive of Tianya, which was founded in 1999 in Haikou, a city on an island in southern China.

Xiao Zengjian, founder and editor of another discussion site, KDNet, said that the new openness has done wonders to help China's image domestically. "Our Internet users do not just believe what Xinhua News says," he said, referring to the state-run news service. "They will verify it. The Chinese media wants to cover things up for the sake of China but it backfires. It's better to tell the truth and let people discuss it."

On Tianya, with 20 million registered users one of the largest online discussion sites in China, the conversation about the Olympics is emotional.

"China is in danger," wrote one user. "We should stick together. Even if there is something wrong with the action of the government, we should pull together. Resistance to foreign invasion necessitates internal pacification."

Internet users hailed Jin Jing, the athlete who carried the Olympic torch while in her wheelchair only to be confronted by protesters in Paris; reports say she protected the torch "at the cost of her life." (She was not injured.) Others referred to "stupid Westerners" and compared the Dalai Lama to Hitler.

Postings criticizing the Chinese government or supporting Tibetan independence are rare but prominent -- mostly because they are immediately followed by a storm of angry responses, including ones that call for the "immediate execution" of the authors.

In some cases, the online anger has had real-world consequences.

An Internet mob went after Lobsang Gendun, an ethnic Tibetan who lives in Salt Lake City, after anonymous online posters wrongly identified him as one of Jin's attackers. They posted a Google map of his neighborhood, a photo of his house, and his home phone number, employer and e-mail address. He's gotten thousands of angry e-mails, many he cannot read because his computer does not recognize Chinese characters, and unless he disconnects his phone, it rings through the night. On Tuesday, his boss persuaded him to take his family and move into a hotel until things calm down.

"It's scary," Gendun said in a phone interview. "I replied to some e-mails trying to tell them I'm not the person they saw on the news."

The comments about Wang are mostly unprintable -- they are sexually explicit and violent -- but she is most offended by how online users have targeted her family.

"It's really shocking," Wang said from her dorm room as she looked at an image posted online of her parents' front door in Qingdao, a city on China's east coast. An overturned bucket of excrement is lying in front. "They are directly, physically attacking my parents."

Wang and her mother communicate only though e-mail these days, sending short messages once in the morning and once at night that they are safe. Wang has not telephoned because she fears possible government eavesdropping that could cause more problems for her parents.

Her mother told Wang recently that someone -- she doesn't know who -- installed a video camera outside their apartment. She and Wang's father have moved out.

Wang's father is a Communist Party member. He sent her two long e-mails right after the incident telling her to publicly apologize. "After the opening up and reform, China has made great developments and been steady, so that you and our family have all we have today," her father wrote in Chinese. He said she should concentrate on her studies and stay away from politics. He told her that he and her mom loved her but that she needed to tell people she had chosen the wrong path.

But as Wang describes the events of the April 10 vigil and her involvement, she stands by her actions.
She said that she when she arrived at the vigil, a couple of dozen pro-Tibetan students were facing off with around 400 Chinese students, waving Chinese flags and shouting slogans. She decided to try to mediate between the two groups but found that neither side wanted to listen. The Chinese students surrounded her, shouting insults and peppering her with questions about her national loyalty. She eventually asked a police officer to escort her back to her dorm.

A few hours later, Wang wrote an essay and posted it on a forum run by the Duke Chinese Students and Scholars Association. In it, she explained what she had tried to say at the demonstration: She did not support Tibetan independence but called for tolerance and dialogue.

The forum was soon aflame with critical posts.

Wang says she has gotten hundreds of phone calls and thousands of e-mails, most vilifying her but some that are supportive.

"One-sixth of the population of the world now knows my personal information as detailed as my identity number," Wang said. "I'm not going to let them easily call me a traitor, such a name that can ruin my future forever."

Drew reported from Beijing. Researcher Liu Liu contributed to this report.


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It took one or two people such as Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen to stir things up the first month on the job, who I had never met in my life; that incited sexually harassment, abuse, termination, physical harm and rape on me.

Then followed by classmates to the rest of the Patent and Trademark Office as well employees' friends and neighborhoods, and furthered by Hung Havan (my ex-officemate) and his cabal - Nathan Hillery , Michele Choi, Susanne Lo and her (Indian) friends from AU2128 that set me up to be sexually harassed, abused, termination, physical harm and rape.

In a similar manner, I was targeted soon I arrived in the Silicon Valley/San Francisco Bay Area by people from Asia who I had never met in my life.  They were the majority in every Tech company's engineering department I've worked.  I had to abscond from the Silicon Valley due to physical harm threats.

I was terminated in 8/2011, and now a failed rape attempt, and stabbed and slashed on my neck.



This Hispanic male who assaulted me

He did not seem to think assaulting women is a crime.  He acted like he was on a Sunday walk with a smile on his face.  When he stabbed and cut my throat; it was as if he was doing something casual.  Something he would do often.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

2 of my favorite TV shows

Criminal Mind and The Mentalist.

CSI sometimes.

2 Hispanic middle age males were waiting for me

As I left the house for the first time, 2 Hispanic middle age males in a deep blue truck/van followed right behind me, not a usual type of truck/van with expanded/wide half of the truck fully enclosed with a hard top, no window or very small, old model I believed.  This truck/van may very well been retrofitted.   Also, not the typical Texas size truck as it does not look out of place in a small street like our's, so it may very well be a Japanese made model.  

This type of truck, 2 doors with narrow middle where the 2nd set of doors are, then the back half widen that is wider then the rest of the truck 
http://www.truckman.co.uk/ProductImages/Zoom/8HF2H9BOFORA5D.jpg

They were waiting for me just down the road of my house.  When they pasted me, one stared at me as if he knows me and smiled as if he did something very proud.

The one on the right facing me looks like doing manual labor for a living.  I couldn't see the one on the left on the driver's seat.


Now they know where I live.  It is a matter of time......

Seriously consider moving home.....

CNN's film "Girls Rising"

that's why I am so grateful all my life to be living in the US.

But now I am treated like I am living in those countries by people from that parts of the world continue to practice their 3rd world bigotry toward women such as the likes of Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen, Hung Havan and his cabal, and to rape and cut a woman's throat such as the Hispanic male that did this to me, while HATED me for being an American in America and enjoyed the benefits of everything America had to offer.



Why stabbed and slashed my neck when

there are so many body parts could've been a much easier target?



Friday, June 21, 2013

Suicide of a Physics Professor

Back when I was in college, I woke up early in the morning by the phone.

A friend/classmate called and told me a Physics professor we both had died.  He killed himself.  He had been going through personal problems for a long time.  He was from France.

He specifically told her to make sure I would go to his funeral, that he was in love with me.  I freaked out and didn't know what to do.

She called on the day of the funeral at 8am, and the funeral was at 9am.  She never told me the address of the funeral.

I did not approve of him killing himself.  I see that as weak.  So I refused to go to his funeral.  

I have a better understanding now.

Underneath, in my young mind and for years, I unconsciously feel it was my fault that the Physics Professor killed himself and guilty for not attending his funeral.  Still do.....


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

I am beginning to find human to be disgusting

particularly hypocrites.  I am losing that basic soical etiquette with them .....


Sunday, June 16, 2013

Zeitgeist

In ~8/17/2012 , I went to a Shoppers in Seven Corner, VA for the first time as I just moved to Arlington 3 months ago (you should spot me right away as I dressed different then most locals).  As soon as I went in, a middle age Chinese/Vietnamese/Korean woman pointed to me to a Black-American woman next to her and said with a heavy accent "she is a racist".  Such heavy accent indicated she might be just immigrated to the US from Asia.  

The Black-American woman asked her why, the middle age Chinese/Vietnamese/Korean woman said "she likes Americans". The Black-American woman laughed out loud and said "she is not a racist, no wonder she likes Americans."  The Black-American woman then said to me "Hello, how are you" and whether I needed help.

A very smart woman this Black-American woman, smarter then 90% of the people in the Silicon Valley as well anywhere in the US.  I said that because 90+% of the people had never asked WHY, just assumed that when she said racist, it means the same as a typical American's version of racist.  But instead, racist to her is "she likes Americans".

What she really wanted to say to the Black-American woman was that "she only likes White people".  She wanted to incite the Black-Amerian woman to hate me thinking the Black-American woman must've hated White people.  But because of her limited English ability, it came out as "she likes Americans" instead.  

See more on how the likes of this Chinese/Vietnamese/Korean woman's countrymen incited hatreds toward me in May blog "women smarter than them is the equivalent of slapping them on the face"


What kind of mindset is this middle age Chinese/Vietnamese/Korean woman calling another Chinese/Vietnamese/Korean/me a racist, whom she had never met in her life, because she/I like Americans, dated Americans or having American friends? How many Asians shared the same mentality? 

When they said they don't understand me, it is the same as an American said s/he doesn't understand them.  It is a cultural thing.

How pervasive is this in the Asian communities calling me a "racist" just because they said that "I like Americans", in America, no less?  This also been done to me in the Silicon Valley soon I arrived in the Silicon Valley.  I had to abscond from the Silicon Valley due to physical harm threats.  

To spread their hatreds, they use the Internet's social media such as email, mittbbs.com etc, to exchange information such as here http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/04/16/AR2008041603579.html?hpid=topnews   

Remember, I had never met any of these people in my life.  I moved here from NYC, worked nearly 24/7, targeted the first month on the job by Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen, then by Hung Havan (my ex-officemate) and his cabal Nathan Hillery, Michele Choi, Susanne Lo and her (Indian) friends from AU2128.  Hung Havan and Michele Choi used their smartphones to set me up such to come across as if I was checking him out (as if he is Fabio or a Chippendale dancer) to incite sexual harassment, abuse, termination and rape toward me.

I was promptly terminated with outstanding accomplishments; now I got my throat slit and a failed rape attempt; because the Asians said "I like Americans" in Amercia.

This is a HATE crime against me for being perceived as "she likes Americans".  I had never disclosed to anyone whether I liked or disliked Americans, let alone people who I had never met in my life.  This is mainly to incite those who hated Americans to do harm to me and to hate me.  Is this the same hatreds toward Americans as the Boston Marathon Bombers?  People from these communities know why they are doing this to me (don't expect them to disclose this to you willfully.  You need to be tactful to get the answer *sigh*), and is it because of racism toward me as Chinese, and the Chinese discriminated against me because they perceived me as Americanized, a traitor in their view.  Another word, "she likes Americans".  They wanted to make me an example.  

I am specifically stating racial description mainly to let you know that we live in a multi-cultural society with people came from all over the world; that you can NOT assumed they think in the way as Americans do, or shared the same values.