Thursday, July 31, 2014

Just got sexually harassed by the

same nationality as the Hispanic/Latino male who slit my throat. This one is between 20s-40s years old, under 5'5, and weights 175-225lb. Mean looking like a gangster. He keeps staring at me every time I passed by him for about 5 times. He grabbed himself and held his rape kit to me while staring at me.

This happened at Phoenix Bikes' front door just before closing around 5:30pm, while Edordo was helping him. He may have said something to Edordo about me. I ran out of there before he could do any harm to me. I want this guy to go to jail where he would get raped over and over again.

There are other similar incidents where white males grabbed their pant and pull it up. I walked away with disgusted.

Next for me is physical harms, abduction, rape and kill.

I may have to stop going to Phoenix Bikes


Clove Oil, amazing for toothache

It is so painful that I just want to rip everything apart insight. Been like this since last week.

I had 4 teeth broken and is completely missing, the reason?  Every dentist I have seen had drilled on the same 4 teeth over and over again unnecessarily, just for money, without even consulting me, that resulted in weakening the foundation and now all 4 of them are just a big gap in my mouth.  

It is safe to say every dentist would do an unnecessary procedure for money, completely disregard for your/patient's well-being.  



Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Why men don't ask women for help?

Often they feel superior over women, to ask a woman for help would be belittling themselves.   Even  though I had  shown more knowledgeable in a topic,  men often ask other men for help who are less skillful, despite I verbally make the offer.

The same reason when women are in charge.  Males don't   like women in  management position

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Abusive behavior by a dentist from Asia

My front tooth temperately bridge broken loose and had to be glued back, an apt with the Crystal City Dental Art Center at 2:30pm.  As soon as I saw the Dr is Chinese, I knew this is not going to be a pleasant procedure.

Dr Leo Shin was pleasant at the beginning, when I said the bridge the way it is is by design.  He then asked "what do you mean by design", and suddenly just pulling my upper lip open with force and start staffing cottons into my mouth.  Like a typical Asian male, he just realized he lost his manliness by displaying his ignorance in front of a woman, an underclass who are seen stupid in their Asian culture.  To make sure women remain a 2nd class, these males from Asia would abuse the woman to let her know that she is an underclass.

If a male from asia had too much to drink and acting rowty, and a woman told him he had too much to drink,  the guy would call the woman all sorts of name and scream at her.  Woman are not allow to say anything in an Asian society.  That's why women from Asia are so mousy at best,  bitter and full of hatreds are common due to living in such oppress society.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

A baby crying bloody hell while I held her

I think she saw fear in my eyes and knew I had never held a baby in my life as I wrapped both of my arms around her  like a tension cord for fear of dropping the baby, and the baby decided to screw with me.

She started with a trial cry by making a crying gesture, then stop and watch me to see how I reacted.  I show a fearful with a pleading expression on my face saying whisperly "no, no, no, please" while watching her intensely;  this is when the baby let it rip with a full blow all out cry with tears and lung.  Wow!

I absolutely and completely lost it  and did not know what to do.  I think I was in the process of crying mommy too.  What happen to that mysterious woman's/mother's instinct?  Did my Mom forget to put that in me when she created me, or did she traded that with the instinct of Science and Technology?

Baby 1, Me 0


After days of pondering, the answer is:    DUH!   I am an Asexual.  That explains why I don't have any mother's instinct.

construction on shipping-container apartments

Day one construction on shipping-container apartments is mostly ‘smooth and easy’

July 21 at 7:44 PM



Architect Travis Price, right, watches Monday as a shipping container is moved into place at a lot in northeast to make a three story apartment building. (Bill O'Leary/The Washington Post)


The 400-ton crane was all set, tucked between three sets of hanging wires, two houses and a cantaloupe plant with a small hanging melon, and John Creese was edgy.
“The first one’s the only one that worries me. There will be a learning curve,” said Creese, who was helping orchestrate Washington’s heavy-machinery take on a barn raising Monday.
A dozen workers, including crane operator Ed Kane, had come from Georgia and California and Baltimore to build a three-story apartment building made of shipping containers — in three days or less.
Just before Kane lifted the first slate-blue container from the back of a flatbed, Creese laid out the task: “He’s got to pick it up, swing it over the houses and drop it right where it goes. Hopefully, it’s nice and smooth and easy.”
Creese leapt up on the corrugated-steel box to hook cables to the container’s corners, then climbed down and headed for a set of steel and concrete columns jutting up where an old group house once stood.

Workmen swarm shipping containers being moved into place at a lot in Northeast Washington to make a three story apartment building. (Bill O'Leary/The Washington Post)
A young group of friends who met at neighboring Catholic University, and an architect who teaches there, tore the place down earlier this year to make way for an eye-catching steel, glass and translucent plastic replacement that is supposed to glow like a light box. In a city of soaring rents, their experiment in lower-cost, faster-moving construction could lead to more affordable housing and, backers hope, even a floating village of sea-container apartments on the Potomac.
Creese’s dad, Bill, has been working on containers in Baltimore for more than 30 years, and oversaw the work slicing tall windows and other openings in the 18 containers that will be stacked at Seventh Street NE near where the District’s Brookland and Edgewood neighborhoods meet.
On Monday, John Creese and his brother Larry eyed the first container as it was hoisted toward the sky, swept high over a pair of neighboring homes and came toward its new foundation. Kane’s goal: “Just keep clearing the lines and stay away from houses.”
As he lowered it to 100, then 50, then 20 feet, Kane’s view was blocked by a neighboring house and he had to work blind.
The Creese brothers grabbed a pair of ropes tied to the bottom of the container and guided it toward 7-by-7-inch targets on a pair of columns and reinforced walls.
Dan Gill, a second crane operator equipped with only a radio, stood by and guided Kane through each gentle step. He was Kane’s eyes.
“One end touched down,” Gill told his partner. Then, repeating a mantra that slowed with each word, Gill said: “Cabling down eeaazzy. Cabling down eeaazzy.”
The Creese brothers used the rope, and their hands, to nudge the 8-by-40 foot box into place. “I just barely touched it and it slid right where it’s supposed to be,” Larry Creese said.
But it was still a hair off, and it had to be moved again. It was too heavy to push — or sledgehammer — into place.
“I didn’t eat no spinach this morning,” John Creese said. “What do you think, I’m Popeye the sailor man?”
Up again, then: “Cabling down, cabling down. Stop!” Gill said.
And there it was, all four corners, without the slightest clank or thud. Just down.
“It’s perfect,” John Creese said.
The next five went easier, and they kept sliding one box beside the other.
They were planning to do six a day for two more days. But if they can get the trucks coming in fast enough, they’re going to try to stack up the remaining 12 on Tuesday.
“We don’t have to try to align everything together on the foundation,” Creese said. Instead, they can click them together, Lego-style, with the same automatic locks that keep containers stable on ships headed for America’s shores.
They’ll be “welded to the foundation, bolted together, twist-locked together, then we’ll also weld them together,” Creese said. “When it’s done it will essentially be one building. They’ll be joined together in so many places there will be no possible movement.”

Why wouldn't a person read the blog of their romantic interest?

If you are interested in a person, wouldn't you want to know everything about the person?

Yet while some said they are interested in a romantic relationship, yet unwilling to read their romantic interest's blog which clearly give the person an insight of his/her romantic interest; the insight of what make such person ticks.  

But instead, they listen to the defamation that's being promulgated, and acted on it.  And when I had no interested in such person, they then help promulgate the defamation to harm me.  Hence the sexual harassment, abuses, termination, unable to be hired, rape and death threats.  

Anyone who help spread the defamation that started by people from Asia as a way to suppress women to remain as a 2nd class citizen, also intended to incite sexual harassment, abuses, termination, unable to be hired, rape and death on me.....because that's what  they were doing to me and had happened to me.

If you don't seek to understand a person, you are not really interested in the person.  Also, such relationship  is doomed to fail if you don't understand each other.

If you are really interested in the person, you would want to know everything about the person.

Furthermore, most males CAN NOT  handle the relentless attacks I had to endure on a day to day bases. They will either go mad or collapse if they don't have a solid mental toughness and a critical thinking, which I hadn't met any.  Worse, most were used as a cheap tool by people from Asia or ghetto Asians such as Hung Havan and Michelle Choi to further the defamation  against me such I would be sexually harassed, abuse, termination,  rape and kill.  If these people from Asia or the likes of  Hung Havan and Michelle Choi can't get these males to attack me, they will attack these guys just as they did to me start by defaming him as a pedophilia, etc.

If a woman such as I is rich, successful and happy would make these people vomit blood.

Which reminds me of a friend of my Mom, I call her Auntie.  Auntie was working as a freelancer with a jewelry maker, a male who was interested in marrying Auntie which she refused.  Auntie was married with children.  This male went and told Auntie's husband that they were having an affair in an attempted to ruined their marriage such Auntie's husband would divorce Auntie.  They did not get a divorce but did ruined their marriage, her husband went around telling everyone in the Asian community Auntie is a slut, and make Auntie's life misearble for the last 30+ years.  My Mom knew Auntie for a long time and knew she is a woman-of-substance, but her husband is an imbecile at best, unfortunately.  Her husband not only ruined his own life, but also Auntie and their kids' life.  It was an arranged marriage.  You see why there are so much bitterness and hatreds amount the Asian communities, and their resentment toward those who appear to be happy.  Also, why freedom of speech is not allowed in Asia, as this kind of slanderous practice is common in Asia, as evidenced by people from Asia's defamation toward me as soon as I arrived  in the Silicon Valley, and the first month on the job in the Patent and Trademark Office.

Their bitterness and hatreds are worsen when these males married a younger woman after they got rich, and took in mistress/mistresses as they get richier,  which is very common in Asia nowadays.


The defamation of "she checks men out"

is making the round in the Phoenix Bikes shop, as some males start acting out on the defamation, some of these males I had never met in my life, which typically makes me sick to my stomach.  Another word, I was being sexually harassed.  May have to stop going there depend on rather the defamation will get worse or physical harms will be a possibility.  One to two guys may deliberately spread the defamation trying to get rid of me for different reasons.


The defamation of "she checks men out" amount many other defamation, originally instigated in the Patent and Trademark Office by Tuan Nguyen and his countrymen from Asia, re-forced by Michelle Choi and Hung Havan by set me up using their smartphone to incite sexual harassment, abuses, termination, physical harm, rape and the slit of my throat that carried out by a Hispanic/Latino male from South America who will get a death penalty if I am dead, further re-enforced by their close associate and Susanne Lo's boyfriend Bill who also denigrated me with "she's too old for me, etc" ......is now spread to the Bikes shop where people are acting out what they heard as well re-enforced the defamation, next is sexual harassment, abuses, termination, rape and physical harm/death.

Weak minds  will see what other people told them to see, just as in the children's book “The Emperor's new clothes”.  Often these are grown men of 30+, and even 50+s.  It is just sad and mind boggling.

This defamation re-enforced by Hung Havan and Michelle Choi used their smartphone to set me up such I would come across as if I was checking Hung Havan up.  They had to try 3 times to get the effect they were looking for.  I was perplex at the time why Hung Havan keep showing me his son to me on a smart phone.  This defamation also re-enforced by their close associate which they referred to as frenemy -Susanne Lo's boyfriend Bill, who used me to cover their affair such their enemies would come after me.

Both Hung Havan and Michele Choi, amount many from Asia knew I hated being sexually harassed and deemed those who did as lowlife, as well I would report them to the EEO. So to enforce the notion of I checked out Hung Havan as a way to further the sexual harassment and abuses toward me by lowlifes which I would report to the EEOC, he tried to set me up such I come across as if I was checking him up. For example, he would show me clips of his son on is smartphone placed on the desktop while he stood on the other end of the edge of the desk, someone such as his partner in crime Michele Choi would use her smartphone and recorded from afar as if I was checking Hung when he talked to me and I looked up, for the unsuspected simpleton eyes. They tried this at least 3X to finally got it right. I only realized what they did hours later. Hung Havan and Michele Choi’s intention was to have every single lowlife to sexually harass and abuse me, a woman who is outperformed them, to finally get me terminated and raped. That video should be use as evident that led to my slit throat.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Johns Hopkins gynecologist secretly videotaping patients

This story is disturbing to be because I am afraid the same had happened to me after the slit of my throat on 6/1/2013 that put me in the ER where I was stripped naked with ~20 in the ER room, some may have used their smartphone to video me.

As I said in my blog, I felt like I was treated like a livestock and gang raped.

Johns Hopkins agrees to $190 million settlement over patients being secretly videotaped

July 21 at 1:53 PM

Johns Hopkins Hospital has agreed to pay $190 million to up to 8,500 patients who signed onto a class-action lawsuit against a Hopkins gynecologist for secretly videotaping them and, in some instances, performing unnecessary and unattended pelvic examinations.

The doctor, Nikita Levy, committed suicide last year as police unearthed video clips and images of his patients in his home that were taken by a small cameras hidden in everyday objects like a favorite pen.
The settlement was announced Monday by Jonathan Schochor, a lawyer for the plaintiffs and chair of the plaintiffs’ steering committee. Schochor and Hopkins officials were expected to announce the settlement in a joint appearance Monday afternoon.

“When learning of Dr. Levy’s behavior, our clients were extremely distraught. They felt a great breach of faith and trust. They felt betrayed. Now, with this proposed settlement, we can begin the process of healing our community,” Schochor and committee vice-chair Howard Janet said in a statement. An estimated 12,500 people were victimized by Levy,  Schochor said.

Hospital spokesperson Kim Hoppe said hospital officials have been in settlement discussions since fall 2013.
“We have come to an agreement that the plaintiffs’ attorneys and Johns Hopkins Health System believe is fair and properly balances the concerns of thousands of plaintiffs with obligations the Health System has to provide ongoing and superior care to the community,” Hoppe said in a statement “It is our hope that this settlement—and findings by law enforcement that images were not shared—helps those affected achieve a measure of closure.”
Funds for the settlement, which has been approved by the Baltimore City Circuit Court, will be paid through insurance, Hoppe said.

“We assure you that one individual does not define Johns Hopkins,” Hoppe said. “Johns Hopkins is defined by the tens of thousands of employees who come to work determined to provide world-class care for our patients and their families.”


Levy, who was 54 when he died in February 2013, was a graduate of Cornell University Medical College and had worked at Johns Hopkins’s East Baltimore Medical Center since 1988. It is a community clinic that serves the largely low-income and African American surrounding neighborhood.

Many of Levy’s patients who had been loyal to him for years were shocked at the investigation and his subsequent death.  A co-worker contacted the hospital’s security department Feb. 4, 2013, about Levy, and within one day, according to hospital officials, they determined the gynecologist had been taking photos and videos of his patients without their knowledge or consent. He was fired Feb. 8, as Baltimore police began to investigate.

Police seized six cameras concealed in pens, two cameras hidden in keychain fobs, four computers and external hard drives from Levy’s Towson-area home. He was found dead Feb. 18, a helium-filled plastic bag over his head, and a note of apology to his wife.

Thousands of women, accused of sorcery, tortured and executed in Indian witch hunts

I was working with people came from that part of the world in the Silicon Valley and the Tech Industry, as well the Patent and Trademark Office. They were the majority in many of the Silicon Valley in the 1990s. And now they are the majority in the Tech Industry where women had always been discriminated against.

Thousands of women, accused of sorcery, tortured and executed in Indian witch hunts

July 21 at 4:50 AM



In 2005, Pusanidevi Manjhi was branded a witch and tortured for four days by a powerful landowning family in the village Palani, in the Jharkhand state of India. (Rama Lakshmi/The Washington Post)
If it began like the others, the first sign that Saraswati Devi would be murdered was an accusation delivered to a shaman. Perhaps she had offended someone. Perhaps someone had fallen sick and had wondered why. Perhaps a community well had suddenly dried and someone needed blaming. Perhaps they chose her because Devi was lower caste, because she was a woman, and because they’d probably get away with it.

The killers came for her on Saturday. Two of her sons tried to save her, but couldn’t and were beaten. Their punishment wouldn’t match Devi’s. Before the 14 villagers inflicted injuries so severe they would claim her life, they “forced her to consume human excreta,” police told the Hindustan Times.

Though shocking by nearly any standard, the murder was not unique. It was not even uncommon in pockets of rural India.

In places where superstition and vigilantism overlap and small rumors can turn deadly, nearly 2,100 women accused of witchcraft have been killed between 2000 and 2012, according to crime records gathered by the Indian newspaper Mint. Others placed the number at 2,500; others higher still. “Like the proverbial tip of a very deep iceberg, available data hides much of the reality of a problem that is deeply ingrained in society,” according to New Delhi-based Partners for Law in Development. “It is only the most gruesome cases that are reported — most cases of witch-hunting go unreported and unrecorded.”

Chhutni Mahatani recalls the incidents that led to her being named a witch at her home near Bholadi village in the eastern Indian state of Bihar in June of 2000. In 1995, Mahatani was tortured by her brother-in-law after a child fell ill in her village. (Saurabh Das/AP)

It’s an issue that despite its prevalence is rarely covered outside of India, where it’s almost weekly newspaper fodder. Last week in Chandrapur, one man was lynched and his “woman accomplice thrashed by a mob for practicing black magic,” reported the Times of India, which said the man “was caught red-handed by the mob of over 500 villagers.” Another woman accused of witchcraft was grabbed by relatives carrying “traditional weapons” and beaten to death. Late last year, in Jharkhand, a 50-year-old woman and her daughter were hacked to death after they were accused of practicing witchcraft.

The forces driving the killings, which occur predominantly in Indian states with large tribal populations, are as much cultural as they are economic and caste-based, experts said. While the easiest explanation is that angered mobs confuse a sudden illness or crop failure with witchcraft and exact their revenge, it’s rarely that simple. Much more often, it isn’t superstition but gender and class discrimination. Those accused of sorcery often come from similar backgrounds: female, poor and of a low caste.

“Witch-hunting is essentially a legacy of violence against women in our society,” wrote Rakesh Singh of the Indian Social Institute. “For almost invariably, it is [low caste] women, who are branded as witches. By punishing those who are seen as vile and wild, oppressors perhaps want to send a not-so-subtle message to women: docility and domesticity get rewarded; anything else gets punished.”

The veil of superstition, others said, only hides the true motive behind the killings. “Superstition is only an excuse,” Pooja Singhal Purwar, a social welfare official, told The Washington Post’s Rama Lakshmi in 2005. “Often a woman is branded a witch so that you can throw her out of the village and grab her land, or to settle scores, family rivalry, or because powerful men want to punish her for spurning their sexual advances. Sometimes, it is used to punish women who question social norms.”

If there is a state most susceptible to witchcraft killings, it’s the eastern state of Jharkhand, a land pervaded by dense forest and uneducated tribes. In 2013, 54 witchcraft-accused women were killed there, reported the News Minute, the highest rate in the country. Despite local legislation to try and clamp down on the murders – no national law exists that addresses witchcraft killings – they have continued if not increased. And patterns there are worth examining to understand how the horror unfolds.

According to Mint, an Indian publication which has written extensively on the subject, a witch is identified through various methods. The person who suspects witchcraft will often consult a witch doctor called an “ojha.” The witch doctor, who uses medicinal herbs, in part learned their skills to counter the darker powers of the witches, called “daayan.”
Karuna Devi poses in her home in Bholadi village in the eastern state of Bihar, India, June 30, 2000. After her son died in 1996, Devi was accused of being a witch by her brother-in-law. She was later cleared of the charge by a witch doctor in the Hindu holy city of Gaya. Unofficial estimates say at least 200 women are killed as witches across India each year. (AP Photo/Saurabh Das)
Karuna Devi poses in her home in Bholadi village in the eastern state of Bihar, India, in June of 2000. After her son died in 1996, Devi was accused of being a witch by her brother-in-law. She was later cleared of the charge by a witch doctor in the Hindu holy city of Gaya.  (Saurabh Das/AP)

The ojha then goes about the business of sussing out the witch. This involves incantations, Mint reports, and possibly the branches of a sal tree. The ojha writes the names of all those suspected of witchraft onto the branches of the tree, and the name that’s on the branch that withers is condemned as a witch. Other times, rice is wrapped in cloth emblazoned with names. Then the rice is placed inside a nest of white ants.

Whichever bag the ants eat out identifies the witch. Another method: potions. One Indian shaman in 2011 forced 30 women to drink a potion to prove they weren’t witches. The concoction was made out of a poisonous herb, all women fell ill, and the shaman was arrested.

After a witch is chosen, they are either forced to do unspeakable things or tortured. “In many reported cases recently, women who are branded as witches were made to walk naked through the village, were gang-raped, had their breasts cut off, teeth broken or heads tonsured, apart from being ostracized from their village,” reported Live Mint. They “were forced to swallow urine and human feces, to eat human flesh, or drink the blood of a chicken.”

This, too, was the fate of Saraswati Devi, the latest woman, though likely not the last, to be accused of witchcraft, tortured and murdered.

So how did the perpetrator who slit my throat

identitified me as a targeted?  

He was told to go to a Four Miles Trail and look for a Chinese girl that wears a cowboy hat.  He also had seen the video of me where Hung Havan and Michelle Choi used to set me for termination, sexual harassement, rape and now used to identify me to be abducted, raped and killed.  That's why the perpetrator left up my cowboy hat to make sure I was the right person he was looking for.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

It is proven that cabbage does produce

gas.  oops.

The conflicts in Asia are played out here in the US

by people from Asia as well, where the Chinese owned factories are burned down and Chinese killed by the Vietnamese, after the news reported Chinese ships bob or sinked Vietnamese ships in a territorial dispute.

This reaction to the territorial disputes in the South China Sea involving both island and maritime claims among seven sovereign states within the region. This also played out in the US where I've been targeted by Vietnamese immigrants whom they see me as Chinese, in addition to racism.

Again, nearly all people from Asia discriminated agaisnt each other, particularly amount the Chinese, Vietnamese, and Indian as they re the maajor immigrants from Asia, and they all discriminted against Americanized Asian as they see us as traitors.

Makes one wonder why these people from Asia are so easily whipped up into killing innocent bystander such as I just because we are the same race as the perpetrator, in a similar manner as the killing of teens in Gaza and Isreal?  I believed most of them are psychologically unstable at best, it had a lot to do with how abusive their people are toward each other.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

"I saw her first, she is mine" without even knowing my name

This is essentially what a male said when he proclaimed his love interest, mainly to prevent others from  pursuing me,  even though I have no interest in such person.  I am an asexual.  For all they know, I may already have a boyfriend in a committed relationship or married.

Or told the world he is in love with me, which the people-from-Asia I had never met in my life, use that to abuse the guy by telling him "she's already have a boyfriend; she is pregnant; she is a golddigger;  she is only interests in your money (some guys are not even a millionaire, or a dime to their name); she's a party girl,  she's out partying every night; and other slanders are too vicious and denigrating to repeat".  So if you are not someone who is well verse on how the world works, you are bascially asking for punishment, and in the process, ruined my life.

This is all due to people from Asia don't like to see Asian dating none-Asian.  Most people-from-Asia had never seen a white person in their life before immigrated here, legally or illegally.   Also one of the major reasons why people-from-Asia targeted me, the love interest of these White boys.  They can't do anything to the White boys, but they certainly can do harm to their love interests, including their kids.  Similarly, I've been discriminated against all my life for being Asian.

Worse was when such non-Asian boy is hated and fear by everyone, they all took their hatreds out on me instead as they couldn't do anything to that hated non-Asian boy or dare to.

Most of the time, these none-Asian boys know nothing about me, and asked any Asian, often those from Asia for my information as if all 4.3 billion people know each other; in a similar manner as if all white people know each other.  People from Asia in term slander me in the worst possible way, and these American males help spread the slanders.  I am pretty sure most males-from-Asia slandered Asian women when none-Asian boys asked for Asian women's information, especially in the Silicon Valley and the Tech industry.

People-from-Asia targeted me as soon as I arrived in the Silicon Valley, but reached fervor level when White boys started asking for my information.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

A SUV almost hit me on 23rd street

 and Ive Street on my way home today.  People inside  were  cheering.

I wonder if these were the same people who yelled "chink".

"No one wanted her? I want her to be my wife"

An old African-American in his 70, soil to the earth type, said that to his friend next to him while I was waiting for my order in Burger King

His friend laughed at him and said "it is because she is a college Professor" (I was an adjunct), then this old guy said "oh, I thought no one wanted her.  I want her as my wife"

For those who has similar intend, I don't cook nor do I clean.  I had worked 3 jobs every summer since High School to put myself through school and was pursuing a PhD in Lasers and Optics to be a Scientist/Researcher/Professor, never wanted to be a house wife.  I already knew the vicissitudes of life in High School due discriminations experienced since elementary school, must be self sufficient, and never depend on the kindness of strangers.   I will kill myself if I ever need to rely on males like these to live.  They think by ruined my life that I would have to marry one these lowlife to survive, and that they can abuse me after I married them, then divorce me after a few years for a younger woman.  If not, they got their revenge by ruined my life.

Many males partake in the ruined of my life thinking that I would have to marry him in order to survive, particularly those from Asia, which they then can abused me as much as they like.  And if I don't, they are happy to see me suffer.

People like us heard a different calling in life.

"She needs a man" intended to incite sexual harassment and rape toward me.